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not home.
Right now i'm at Chris's house... we're watching Made cause i'm making him. Its one of my favorite episodes. It's the beauty pageant one... great stuff. anyhow, I'm going to watch Wimbledon... FINALLY, woo hoo. i'm excited! I guess i'm hooking up my sister with a free movie too. ehh, whatever, its kewl. I'm also supposed to stop by Nicole's house for her Birthday. I'm supposed to buy her ice cream, but i figure i'll take her out to buy her ice cream some day after school or something. Yea.. anyhows, i have some stuff i need to write down, but i kinda don't want someone reading it so i'm gonna make it a draft and do it later. well ohh well, i shall blog some more later. Adios.
I was stained, with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life
You showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right
I just didn't know that I might Peel away
and choose to see with such a different sight
//Vanessa Carlton - Twilight
What to talk about... well i guess i'll post about my day yesterday. I went to chris's in the morning and fell asleep and then went to school. i still have stuff to make up in Currie's class, but its okay, i'll get it done by next week. uhh, other than that school was school... still hate it. ohh well.
After school chris and i decided to not go to Shaun of the Dead but instead hang out with our friends. I called up Daffodil cause she asked me earlier if i wanted to go homecoming shopping. I went and picked her up from school and we went to Jack In The Box to eat, because she gets a discount. She bought me my dinner, thank you, friend. Yea we sat there and talked and then we went to Marshalls cause thats where we were supposed to meet Sybil and Wilfred.
Got to marshalls and some guys were all checking us out and all this blah... ehh, no. Anyway, I found out that my dear friend Anthony work at Marshalls. I applied for a job at Marshalls but i never got a call... LAME. anyway, we met up with Syb and Wilfred and Wilfred couldn't find what he was looking for, so we decided to go to K-Mart. Wilfred left us girls alone and we had fun times shopping together. I haven't hung out with these girls since like Sophmore Year, no Freshman year! ahh, i missed it and i missed them. Anyways, we chatted in the depilatory/waxing/shaving aisle for a very long time talking. We would look around at lotion or make up or something but we always ended up in the same damn ailse. It took us hours to get out of Kmart. We finally finished and then we talked on the phone with Jordie. Wilfred told us about this party his friend was having, so I ended up going with Daffodil. I was kinda iffy about and i should have been.
We got to the party before wilfred did, so Daff and i stayed in the car and talked. We decided to go to the house and go in. I've never seen so many brown people crowding a house ever in my life. It was really early too, it was like 8 or 9. ANyway, i knew a few people and i said hi and stuff, but i pretty much kept to myself. Yea, so we pretty much dealt with it for like half an hour or so and then we decided to ditch it. It wasn't our scene and i got tired of watching asian girls dance with eachother.
So Daff and i ended up going to the movies. We decided to watch First Daughter. It was surprisingly good and nothing like Chasing Liberty. I loved it. yea, we did that and then i drove her home. I talked to Chris once he got home and then i went to bed. and now i'm going to work... Hurray...
I think I’ve already lost you
I think you’re already gone
I think I’m finally scared now
You think I’m weak - but I think you’re wrong
I think you’re already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
//matchbox 20 - if you're gone
I'm over my parents. I'm going to be gone before they know it. THey're driving me away and i'm glad. I'm going to be gone.
home again
So i got to stay home once again. I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night... I couldn't seem to find a comfortable position... it was lame and annoying. I finally fell asleep around 5ish, then my dad came into my room at like 6 to wake me up and ask me if i was going to school... annoying, but whatever, i found myself awake at 945... a good 4 and a half hours of sleep... this is bullshit.
So i woke up and had breakfast. I had a bagel, creamcheese, and water. I feel fat. I shouldn't eat anymore.
i guess i should try and finish up my beowulf paper... man, i'm just too tired to think though. blah. i'll write my paper and wait for either Emily or Chris to call, whoever calls first is the winner. adios
1. First Name: Annie
2. Hair Color: Dark brown with golden highlights
3. Middle Name: Supelana (the mother's maiden name)
4. Hair Style: Short and layered with bangs in the front
5. Eye Colour: dark brown
6. Height : 5'4 and 3 quarters or something like that
7. Location: Sunnay San Diego
8. Birthday: November 16, 87
9.Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
10. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Yes. The one and only Chris
Favorites
Favourite Animal: I guess Turtles. Elephants and hippos
Favourite Colour(s): Green, Pink, Grey
Favourite Stores: Levi's store, Pac Sun, Hot Topic, Urban Outfitters, Macy's
Favourite Feeling: the one feeling u can't explain
Favourite Shoe: My old ass converses
Favourite Scent: Calvin Klien Eternity for men or Ralph Lauren: Cool
Which is more important, personality or looks?: Personality. i've dating a guy who's plain and boring, where his stories are crap and i have to fake a laugh... not fun
What kind of personality do you like in a guy/girl?: Funny, sarcastic, intelligent, caring, sweet, grounded but outgoing
Do you move fast or slow in a relationship?: hate to admit it, but somewhat fast
What is your idea of the perfect guy/girl?: His flaws and faults perfect the imperfect. Basically one that cares and loves me for me. I don't expect much from anyone, it leads to less disapointment and more surprise.
Would you ever ask someone out?: Have before.
Do you prefer blondes or brunettes: Brunettes with light eyes.
Love, Life, + Friends
What is the first thing you notice about someone?: Eyes, Smile, Hair, the way they carry themselves
When's the last time you cried?: Last night cause of the back
What do you want to be when you grow up?: General Physician, Nurse
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: no, they end up on the floor across the room somehow
Do you like someone right now?: yes. Hi Chris
Do they know?: Yes, he's my boyfriend
Do you have a best friend?: yea, i apparently have too many
Within the last 24 hours, have you. .
Had a serious talk?: yes, with Chrissy
Hugged someone?: Yes
Gotten along well with your parents?: amazingly yes
Fought with a friend?: no
Do you liek to..
Give hugs? Yes
Give kisses? Yes
Back rubs?: Shoulder Rubs
Take walks in the rain?: When theres someone to walk with me.
You ever have that falling dream?: Yes, and when i supposedly hit the ground i spaz and wake up
What is on the walls of your room?:A vans shirt with th early november sigs, THe Ataris shirt with autographs, So Co pics, Family Pics, a towel from the SPitalfield concert, a guitar pic from the Mae concert, The ramones poster, the strokes poster, Orlando Bloom poster, 2 notebook posters, Pepperdine pics, Jude Law from Skycaptain poster
When you chew gum, what kind?: Ice Breakers or doublemint
Do you use lip balm?: Absolutely... Carmex man
In the last month have you or did you. .
Drink?: yes.
Smoke?: no
Drugs?: no
Have Sex?: Uhh
Made Out?: yes
Go on a date?: what do u classify as a date?
Been on stage?: yes
Been dumped?: i dunno who the hell dumped who
Watched The Smurfs?: do they even show that show anymore
More Stuff
1. Are you popular?: i know a lot of people
2. Are you pretty?: whats pretty?
3. Do you have your own phone line?: My Kyocera Slider
4. What is your favourite word to say?: asshole, bitch, fucker
5. What are you doing right now?: i'm supposed to be doing my beowulf paper
6.What song are you listening to?: matchbook romance - the greatest fall
7. What are you wearing?: blue joe boxer shorts and a care bear wife beater
Prefrences- Pick
1. Cold or hot?: Ice Cold
2. Lace or satin?: Satin
3. Blue or Red?: green
4. New or old?: old
5. Rain or snow?: snow
6. Wool or cotton?: cotton, wool is too itchy
8. Rose or Daisy?: rose
9. Private school or public school?: public
10. Chocolate milk or plain milk?: Chocolate milk
11. Celsius or Fahrenheit?: good Ol' F
12. Spring or Fall?: Fall
13. Innie or outtie?: Innies!
14. English or Math?: english...
15. Bath or shower?: shower
16. Bedtime phrase?: Good Bye, Good night, and sweet dreamz
17. Cursive or print?: print or if u have it, Azn gurl handwriting
18. Do you like surprises?: Yes
19. Paranoid or Cautious?: cautious
20. Heights or Crowds?: Crowds, i deal with them at concerts all the damn time
21. Half-full or half-empty?: half empty
22. Top or bottom?: Bottom
23. Do you/Would you dye your hair?: yes.
24. Gold or silver?: silver, the color of my car
25. Bad habits?: procrastinating, being lazy, being a bad driver
26. Piercings?: 13, 2 are streched though
27. Erogenous Zone(s)?: maybe one day u'll be lucky enough to find out
28. "Maybe" or "Mebbe?": MAYBE... damn u people who spell words all contarded and shit
29. Snore or talk?: both are good. snoring can be cute... i found that out just lately
30. What do you wish you'd done?: Been more careful with my back
31. Fetish: too many to name.
32. Do you have one of THOSE voices?: whats that?
33. Jammies or naked?: jammies
I need money...
I don't really i just have a list of things i need to buy and would like to buy... lets see how it goes...
Bolded are need
Italicized are want
Chris's homecoming ticket
Chris's boutinere
Homecoming Dinner
Homecoming accessories
Dinner at cheesecake factory for tina's last day
Pay Rachel back for my TBS ticket
Starting Line Ticket
Senior Pictures
Gasoline
Hot Rod Circut CD
Matchbook Romance CD
Senses Fail CD
My Chemical Romance CD
Get Up Kids CD
Yeah Yeah Yeah's CD
Part One - Names
1. Your REAL Name: Antoinette Cope
2. What friends call you: Annie, An-KnEE, the Annster, Shitfaced Annie
3. What your (ex) boy/girl friend calls you: Sweetheart, Sweety, & "my heart"
4. What's a name you once wished you'd rather have?: Kelly hahaha (from saved by the bell)
5. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: ehh... i dunno
6. What would you name these if you had them as pets?
a. turtle: Crush
b. goose: the hell??
c. pirate: uhh. Captain Oats
d. a hot guy: my man Whore.
7. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: The sweetest, sickest chick in the world
8. What would you name your kids?: Boy: Skyler & Caleb
Girls: Winifred has surprisingly grown on me thanx to the boyfriend. I do like Pru and Drusilla as well. But the boys are my priority
9. What would you name a ship you built?: Atlantis
10. If you wrote a book, what would it be called? The day after yesterday
Part Two - Have you ever...
11. Thrown up in public?: yes... haha...
12. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: Yes...several things unfortunately
13. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about?: Damn it
14. Tripped while checking someone out?: Yes. haha. Damn the uneven concrete of MCHS
15. Had to pay for something you broke?: Nope... i can always cry my way outtah things
16. Nearly drowned?: most likely at the beach some time...I eat it with those huge waves
17. Passed out?: 3 times, once while i was working out, once cause of back pain, once cause i drank too much... woo hoo
18. Had a crush on somebody NOT single?: more than once
19. Been stuck in the rain?: yea, before i could drive
20. Been attacked by an animal?: Yea, This big ass dog on my old street... Yea... haha
21. Caught people having sex?: yea... that was interesting
22. Fallen asleep while driving?: nope, although i do get pretty exhausted at the wheel
23. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: Adriana Lima (victoria secret) and Angelina Jolie... but thats about it... Hurray for hot females
24. Actually slipped on a banana peel?: no, can u really actually slip on one? i thought that was just like an urban myth.
25. Made a wish that came true?: not that i recall
Part Three - Complete The Sentence
26. I once had a dream I was kissing ... my boyfriend, chris
27. I'm only racist towards ..... Anything that has a hint of BROWN in it. Hence the SN... toobadimbrown as well as the wanna be whitegirlness
28. I don't even know why I'm so ..... KEWL!
30. Nothing sucks more than headaches that occur.....while driving
31. If I had six bucks I'd buy something that costs.....5.99
32. It's hot. I should take off my..... socks
33. It's always more fun if you ... smile
34. You can't eat steak without .. Lee & perrins
35. You better shut up before I .. kick ur dumbass
36. Just put it on my ... dad's credit card
37. I really like you and everything ... about you.
38. I'm not who you think I am. I'm really a ... a loyal, kind, funny, and enthusiastic friend... can u hear the sarcasm
39. Dude! Where's my ... car. God is that lame
Part Four - What would you do if..
40. A dirty old guy at the airport slaps your ass?: Go and slap his ass
41. You witness somebody about to steal your car?: Go kick their candy ass, back my car up into them, kill them, and blame it on them for running into my car.
42. You wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over you and your bed?: die.
43. You farted while giving a persuasive speech in class?: hmm. run out the door crying
44. The person you just kissed tells you they have oral herpes?: Fuck them up the ass and tell them i have genital herpes
45. A genie lets you have three wishes?: Use the wishes
46. The government allowed you to choose one thing to be made illegal and one thing to be legalized? illegal to...annoy the shit outta the annster. Legalize: Drinking age at any age!
47. Britney Spears was at your front door asking for jumper cables?: slap her for ever thinking she can sing
48. You had a time machine?: go back and visit the old days back when times were good.
49. FOX gave you a half hour show to do whatever you wanted?: Film a half hour version of the OC to add to the other hour
Part Five - Would You Rather
50. Would you rather find the cure for cancer or the cure for AIDS?: Cancer.. touchy subject
51. Would you rather have the power to fly, or the power to teleport?: Fly
52. Would you rather have the power to see the future, or the power to record your dreams?: See the future
53. Would you rather be really skinny, or really fat?: really skinny
54. Would you rather be lost in a forest, or stuck in a box?: stuck in a box. i;ve already been lost in a forest. haha.
55. Would you rather be in a drama movie, or a comedy?: comedy, i dont need anymore drama
56. Would you rather be in a hip hop video or a rock video?: RoCk! hip hop has started to lose its touch
57. Would you rather have your birthday on Christmas Day, or on February 29th?: feb 29th, and just have a birthday party every 28th.
58. Would you rather live in the sewer, or in Afghanistan?: sewer
59. Would you rather be in a mental institution or in a penitentiary?: tough one... i think the penitentiary
60. Would you rather snow board or hang glide?: Snowboard
61. Would you rather be a ninja or a pirate?: pirate. u get to wear some sick ass eyeliner
Part Six - What's the FIRST thing that comes to your mind when you read the following words?
62. Courage: Less (thats a suffix)
63. Driver: Me
64. Yoga: My sister
65. Bakery: Double Tree Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies
66. Roach: Disgusting
67. Mushroom: YUMMY
68. Sprung: Chris
69. Exotic: Adriana Lima
70. Pythagorean: Theorem
Part Seven - Miscellaneous
71. Construct an acronym for these words. (example: G M S = Give Me Steak )
a. S O L R A C: Suprisingly Outrageously Long Rectum At Carson
b. D A N G E R: Do A Nice Girl, Even Rachel
c. C H I N A: Change Hinekens In Neighbors Ass
d. R P G: Right Part, Guy!
72. What is your definition of love?: No such thing. When u find it u know it and its unexplainable. Everything is right in the world and the little flaws arn't flaws but they make the unperfect perfect.
73. List 3 words that are clues to identifying a person you are currently interested in: Funny, Sweet, Amazing (thats for u sweety)
74. Reveal a secret about you that nobody knows of, but type it in acronym form. iasotfawiml
75. Close your eyes, turn around, and then open them: no
76. Were you too scared to do it? No, i'm too lazy
77. Who or what is your worst enemy?: my fears... Fear of Failure, Fear of rejection, and fear of loss
78: Who is the last person you kicked?: Chris
79. If you had to be a chess piece, which piece would you be?: The queen, she can do anything on the board including KICKING UR ASS!
80. Name three people you know whose names begin with the last letter of your first name: Erickson, Emily, E-tang
81. What's one romantic thing somebody's done for you?: Kissed me on the cheek
82. If you had to break one of your bones, which bone would it be?: Phalange or MetaCarpal.. hand bones and all that nonsense, anything in my left hand so i would still be able to write.
Part Eight - What Is Your Counter Argument?
83. "Guys want nothing but action." ....there is no counter... although Chris says he doesn't like sex, i think thats bull.
84. "Only idiots watch The Simpsons." I concur.
85. "Kentucky is way better than Cali." Yea, why would Cali be so great? ALl that sunshine, those great beaches, not to mention, San Diego has the most beautiful people in amaerica. Yea, Kentucky is way better.
86. "There's nothing wrong with stealing." Yes there absolutely is. I've been caught, and the consequences of that tell me that stealing is all wrong
87. "Alcohol is the answer to ALL your problems." Yes, it is the problem that solves all problems. I love the bottle...
88. "You don't need to go to college to be a brain surgeon." Yea, cause i want someone illiterate to operate on my brain. jk. An education is very important to every occupation and to life in general...
89. "Music is stupid." Ehh? Music can convey so many feelings and emotions, for example if u were to watch a movie without music, the things that u would feel while watching that same movie with music would be GONE.
90. "Your car sucks." lets RACE BITCH.
Part Nine - One More
91. Predict who the first person is that will leave a comment in your box: Don't have a comment box... i have a Chatter Box! haha. no one leave me messages
Screwed...
So i'm screwed off my ass... i mean SCREWED! I know i've been over working myself a little with my back but i didn't think i was gonna hurt it this easily. It was really disapointing and very depressing. I hate getting injured... thats the problem with back problems they're reaccuring, muther fucker. Well i think i pinched a nerve again, it wasn't both, like is has been before, and it's not so severe, but i pinched it. I had work today and i was trying to fix the seed bin under the popper, so in order to push it in all the way i had to bend over a little and force it in... it sucked cause not only did i injure myself in the process, but i also didn't fix the muther fucker. So i sucked up the pain, cause i had a fucking line, and i just served each and every person during the damn rush. The rush lasted about an hour too. I teared up like twice during that hour, and i complained... It sucked ass. I went to the restroom and cried cause it hurt so bad. I went on break right after that too, i had to go to box to get advil cause i didn't have my medication on me, Rachel asked what was up and i started to cry again cause thinking about the pain made it that much worst. So i went and i took the advil and i saw rachel when i was outside, we went to Pick Up Stix and grabbed some food then it was back to work. It sucked, but Cathy took me off register cause i told her what was up, and i ended up greeting for about an hour or so and got to rest my back.
what sucks more is that i can't tell anyone. I'm fucked. If i tell my mom she's gonna tell me that its because i go out to much and i dont sit home and rest... too bad thats not it. but whatever, shes gonna turn it around on me, and thats a load of bullshit. I can't tell anyone at school because people in that thing that i love called BAND are going to find out then i'm really scarewed. The directors are going to pull me out of the show, just like last year, and i'm not going to be able to play... Torns is going to be so disapointed and i'm going to be disapointed and the whole deal and its still the beginning of the freaking season. damn it. I dont want to tell people at work cause thats lame ass... although i could be put in Box and that would be pretty sick... but man, i dunno this is lame... I hate this. and now my back hurts again.
I went to chris's afterwards, and we were going to watch Fight Club on TV but he doesn't like the cut up version so we ended up hanging out...
And we'll make it through this
If I had just one wish
If my dreams all come true
Then your dreams will too
And I miss you and don't you miss me?
I don't know just where to start
It's like, when I'm without you
Things just fall apart
//Spitalfield - Make my heart attack
So Chris and i were talking and he brought up the topic of breaking up. We've kinda talked about it a couple times before. He asked me what would happen if we broke up. When we talk about it it really scares me, by the way, but i'll get to that later. I honestly didn't know what to say. It kinda took me a while to come up with an answer. I told him that if the reason was good, i would be pretty okay with it... if the reason was void, i would shrivel up and die... not really. But yea, i told him about how happy i am and how it could all be taken away from me in seconds. I told him about how losing everything is one of my biggest fears, also. He told me a lot of things about our future (i guess) that really scares me. I'm scared to see how it pans out and i'm scared that i'm going to end up with a broken heart, because more than likely, i will, but I know that i'm willing to take that chance because i'd rather feel it all, all the happiness and all the pain, rather than shelter myself from it all and not experience anything. I'm scared shitless. I'm really really scared.